Flawed Instinct II
Patience is the password. Genuine friendship is the key that unlocks your door. With her, true love is when two friends fall in love. She likes the idea of “interest” before intimacy. I believe that for her, sex is a very private matter and “friendship” is similar to foreplay. Love-making is a union of body, thoughts and feelings. She need the space to create, the freedom to feel, and the permission to let your feelings flow like liquid. Whatever she does, she prefers to enjoy the feeling of connection before feeling comfortable enough to totally open up.
She’s free and independent thinker who come to her own conclusions about things rather than simply relying on what other people tell her. She doesn’t like to judge a book by its cover and prefer to keep an open mind when going into new situations and meeting new people. I always tries to know about that book first before her – because I want to have all the bad energy of her in me – before they even touch her beautiful innocent soul.
She’s not a good liar – I know and before anything I trust her fully – but sometimes due to over protecting her innocence and soul – I believe I’m going far away from her smile – because she is not liking this attitude of mine, but I’ve never busted up the things. I feel very happy inside from the day I told her that I’ve something for her – Love.
I know that one of the more negative traits and characteristics of her would definitely be tendency to over-think the absolute hell out of things. Sometimes she finds herself over analyzing things to the point where she feels incredibly stressed and anxious only to realize later that it wasn’t even that big of a deal in the first place.
She is very known to me – I don’t know how - If anyone up in their face being all ‘me, me, me’ and not actually listening to what she has to say then they’ll be far from impressed. If one can’t respect her boundaries or try to make everything about oneself then she will likely tell them take a hike and walk the other way. In fact, I’m doing like them too – but I was not like this before – the reality of my past knocks my bad traits before her. These are not mine, I’ve never met these traits before – but my unrequited deepen feelings about her may be the reason – I do not believe this because feelings are feelings. I know how she feels when her special and - I think I’m her only special - is behaving like unfaithful and untrusty soul.